给与未来老公的一封信

To: 未来老公


老公啊，你还要多起来多久呢？ 赶紧出现了吧，你的宝贝我等你等了快25年了。=( 
宝贝我努力的提升自己，让自己变个有用的女人，这样以后生活再苦我也能够帮你我们一起二生二灭。 
宝贝我努力在提升自己，让自己变成一个带得出厅堂，入得厨房的女人，这样以后我不会丢你得脸，能让你带我出门时感到很骄傲，回到家时能让你吃饱饱做个幸福的老公^^
宝贝我努力让自己变漂亮，这样我们以后天天面对面直到我们老死为止，你也不会觉得腻。


老公啊，这25年来出现了几位我以为是你得男人，但他们都不是因为老公你是不会这么容易就放开我的男人对不？ 因为我们要一起到老，老到们都走不动时你会一直牵着我的手，对不？


老公啊，你赶紧出来吧，宝贝我真的好想你了。宝贝不想再一而再再而三的独自面对这样恐怖的世界了，宝贝真的累了，可是宝贝还是会等，因为宝贝相信老公你是一个值得宝贝等的人。你会是个不会让宝贝伤心和哭的男人。




From: 宝贝老婆

巨蟹座

巨蟹很被动，是因为他们害怕被拒绝，害怕是自己的自作多情，更害怕丢脸伤自尊。所以想要他们主动，就得先将自己的感情很明确的告诉他，让他没有瞎想的余地。他们喜欢暧昧，是因为无法确定哪个更能给他们安全感，在几个中徘徊不定，这个时候谁主动给于更安稳、温馨的感觉，他们心中的天平就偏了。

缺少安全感的巨蟹遇到通讯有问题，就会开始胡思乱想，开始为彼此的关系感到担心。所以说如果是要分手的人，是可以用这招来对付巨蟹座的，因为他们会马上清楚你的意思。不过如果是巨蟹座发现打不通是因为电话忙线中的话，就会显示出温柔一面，会体贴的替你着想，而不再打扰你。

喜欢和人聊心事的巨蟹座，最需要有闰中密友或者是难兄难弟来和他一起渡过情绪的起伏，而金牛座和处女座则是最容易和巨蟹座培养出深厚友情的星座。这两个星座都很实际，所以他们都可以给容易逃避现实的巨蟹座很多有用的建议，也能好好的接收巨蟹座的苦水，给巨蟹座情绪上的支持。

巨蟹的恋人往往就是结婚的对像。对方必须是一个体贴的聆听者，能够在巨蟹情绪波动时忍受他们的唠叨。还必须具有无私的耐心，能够在他们心情不好的时候，提供最温柔的安慰。具备以上两个条件，只要适当的时候装装哑巴，摆出最自然的微笑，这样就足够给他们需要的安全感。巨蟹也会用真爱来报答。

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

蟹蟹女我

张依慧

答应我自己

这辈子我再也不会让我自己

爱上一个会让我哭的男人

这个是一个

自己给自己的一个2011兔年的承诺

*勾勾手*

R.A.I.N

the sky seems to understand my mood

the rain havn't stop ever since

I touched down on Sibu

the feeling of being stupid and useless

keeps repeating it self in my mind

is this how a person feel

when he/she is at the stage of

not knowing what to do and what he/she is becoming in the future?

when will I start to live

when will I live my life to the fullest?

when will I be able to do something meaningful

to my life?

LOST

is this something every fresh graduate feels?

EMPTY

is this something every 20++ year old single women feels?

STRUGGLE

is this something every poor people feels?

somehow

have been pretty emo lately

all thanks to the bloody raining days

and being home alone AGAIN

why do I have to be alone

back in Perth

and now came back to Sibu

the same thing again

I am not type that can

conquer loneliness

I am not a strong woman

no I am NOT

for I am weak

I am so bloody weak

and I HATE IT

can you be a little bit STRONGER

Evee Teo???

Just for your own sake

please be strong

-end-

unconciously

unconciously

everything happened so unconsciously

unconsciously I started to notice

unconsciously I became nervous

unconsciously I got used to you

unconsciously I found I actually missed you

this is weird

really really weird

I missed the me whom is able to be in control 

I missed the me whom had never felt so helpless

everything I want to say

all became lost when you are around

everytime I see you

I feel so helpless yet so safe at the same time

this is so freaking irony

I know I shouldn't expect too much

I know I shouldn't ask for too much

cause all these

is just pure my imagination

but 

these few days
when you are not around
when you don't even bother to text or call me

I realise

I really do miss you

sighz~

Evee Teo

you are in deep shit dy!!!!!!

NO GOOD!!!!

悔

我不要了

我不要這樣毫無頭緒的等待

我不要這樣毫無頭緒的害怕

我不要就這樣中了個根本不屬於我的毒

趁我現在還沒中毒

我決定了

我不要了

我真的不要了

我不要再這樣掌握不了自己的思緒了

反正

被玩已是很普片的事兒

既然不會是我的

我會瀟灑的去放下

我會繼續尋找我的幸福

我要找個真正會愛我的人

一個會保護我的人

我再也不會被這些

溫柔迷失了自己的方向

因為

一廂情願的女人很可悲

自作多情的女人更可悲

我不要再做個

可悲的女人

-完-

玩具

差點忘了

本人天生命屬玩具

一個人見人玩的玩具

有時以為自己的命運會改變

原來一直都是

異想天開

現實終究是現實

別奢求能逃離這個現實

這輩子就這麼可悲的

活下去吧

張依慧

Goodbye bloody 2010!!!!

YES!!!

Finally and Officially saying GOODBYE to bloody 2010

this year i learnt ALOT

this year i suffered ALOT

this year i was so freaking unhappy

this year i cried at my b'day (not the happy way)

this year my life changed

but new year is coming

everything can start afresh!!

even my life

I have no New Year Resolution

only New Year Wish

A Little Prayer To God,

Dear God,

This year Please help me find the rite guy, the one that will not break my heart again for Heartbreak is the most painful thing ever in this world. 

This year Please help me obtain a good job with good prospect, the job which can lead me to a good future and being able to earn ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT of money so that I am able to execute what I promised to Dadi and Mami and my babes.

This year Please help me ensure that I will be happy, cause unhappiness drives alot of negativity in me and I would love to say good bye to Mr Depression.

Dear God,

Please ensure my dear Lao Gong Number 1 safe and sound for He was the one that accompany me through all my tears, when I can't sleep He was the one that let me hug till his neck breaks, when I am angry He was the one that let me throw and bang onto the wall with no complain.

and Dear "LGNo.1" I can't bare to say goodbye to you when i have to leave u on the bed while i pack my bag and leave. I do wish aunty will treat you nicely and at least not throw you away. =(

I really did thought of carrying you back to Malaysia with me, but it was seriously mission impossible.

I Miss You Soooooo Much "LGNo.1" >..<"

Dear God,

Please do ensure everyone around me will have a blessed New Year ahead and all are leading a happy life.

I pray that everyone will have good health and no more negativities in their live.

AMEN