【女孩听男孩说过会感觉幸福的话】

1、什么时候想嫁人了就告诉我,我娶你。

2、你个笨蛋啊，遇到这种事要站在我后面！

3、我一定要给你幸福，谁也别想拦着。

4、听着，我爱你!

5、现在结婚很便宜，民政局9块钱搞定，我请你吧！

6、我都舍不得欺负的人，哪能让别人欺负。

7、世界上除了我谁都没资格陪在你身边。

噩梦

Recently have been sleeping ALOT
I have no idea why
-0-

My sleeping addict is coming back I reckon
and this is NO GOOD!!!

eeww...


but then
I'm fine with sleeping
just the DREAMING part is driving me crazi

dis morning
I dreamt of the forbidden person
=(
*PS: dun worry.. not wut married guy or blood related cousin or brother or sth like dat la.... LOL*
Just the guy whom I forbid myself from remembering
from thinking about
from hoping of
the Bloody useless guy


sighz

Yes I dreamt of him
Yes I dreamt of him giving me a surprise by appearing in front of me

WHY am I still having these stupid and idiotic hope for this fuking useless guy?
ggrr!!!


EVEE TEO
WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP


but i hafta admit
it hurts so bad
=(
the hurt one experiences when his heart aches
When will mine be cured?

and yes
I turned coward
I thought i was strong
and will be ready for anything
but I'm just a coward
I don't wanna hope for anything from anyone
cause people tend to let others down

Promises are always formerly sweet
but they will evolve into bloody sharp knife which will continously stab one's heart

so
NO HOPE = NO PROMISES = NO PAIN
that's my conclusion

LOL



Highly recommend a song from G.E.M. - A.I.N.Y
this song I specially dedicate to you this Forbidden Bastard


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A.I.N.Y. (愛你)

作曲： Lupo Groinig, G.E.M.
作詞：G.E.M.
編曲/監製：Lupo Groing

分開以後每個晚上　格外的寂靜
滴答滴答　剩大鐘在陪着我回憶
電話裏頭曾經是你最溫柔的聲音
現在只有空氣　冷漠地回應

OH　給你我的心　能否請你別遺棄
一句愛你愛你愛你愛你　能否再也不分離
OH　給你我的心　爲什麽你卻給了我孤寂
就算愛你愛你愛你愛你　可能你也不想聼
COPYRIGHT DARZZ.COM

你的擁抱曾經是　最溫暖最熟悉
現在換了誰安睡在你胸口的位置
你的承諾曾是一種不自覺的甜蜜
現在一劃一筆　刺在我心裡

OH　給你我的心　能否請你別遺棄
(I gave you everything, Never Asked for anything)
一句愛你愛你愛你愛你　能否再也不分離
(I wish that you could stay, Ha! It’s just my wishful thinking)
OH　給你我的心　爲什麽你卻給了我孤寂
(I gave you everything, But all I got is pain)
就算愛你愛你愛你愛你　可能你也不想聼　你不想聼
(Although my heart is bleeding, You still don’t feel a thing)

轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
回憶 對你最後的回憶
(回憶 最後的回憶)
是你 慢慢走遠的身影
(是你走遠的身影)
然後你 離開了沒有痕跡
(然後你 離開)
然後我 崩潰了放縱哭泣
(然後我 哭泣)
恨你恨你 每當我想起曾經
(恨你 每當我想起你 每當我想起曾經)
曾經曾經曾經曾經

還是愛你愛你愛你愛你
難道還不能清醒

OH　給你我的心　能否請你別遺棄
(I gave you everything, Never Asked for anything)
一句愛你愛你愛你愛你　難道你也不想聽
(I wish that you could stay, Ha! It’s just my wishful thinking)
OH　給你我的心　爲什麽你卻給了我孤寂
(I gave you everything, But all I got is pain)
就算愛你愛你愛你愛你　不值得為你傷心　傷心
(Although my heart is bleeding, You still don’t feel a thing)

Your confession remains to be my final pleading,
But the only thing that’s here with me is tic tac tic tac tic tac tic tac

有一种爱叫放手

小嘉告诉我你每次都会问她我最近如何了。。。

你自己看到我了却完全忽视我。。。

我是隐形的么？？？



是你自己决定离开的。。。

但又是你做出那些举动。。。



你要我如何？？？

我能够如何？？？



开口闭口就只会说

“你好好的生活就够了”

屁话！！！





我早已经不在去期待

不再去迷恋了



你也给我好好的过活

找个好女人去爱

可不可以？？！！





-完-

LookBook Trend

Tokyo Shinjuku Street Snap

This guy's stuffs caught my eye

and YES you can tell he's a freaking Vivien Westwood fan!!

muahahahahah!!!!

*I ignored the hair... Epic Fail... =..=*

Vivien Westwood Gold Jupiter Globe necklace

*Muah Fav!!!!*

Not a normal Vinyl Shorts!

I wonder if he DIY-ed it himself or it's designed that way~

Lovely~

And Ubilical Boots from Tokyo Bopper

*It's so cute as well!!!!! reminds me of rain boots, but I still prefer Dr Marten*
And here comes Vivien Westwood bag

This guy HAS good items!!!

Love it~

**********

Apprently recently the term "Look Book" is super hit on the online community.

On majority magazine website, You'll find the "Look Book" button.

^^

It's a pretty good idea for people to share out their favourite look and trend.

Fashion,

You're such an incredible thing!!!

Due to internet problem

Will not beable to share more looks

Will update soon~

*PS: Yes Imma Jap Fash Freak~*

祈祷

天父，我不祈求你给我完美的人生。。我只祈求你能给我跌倒时爬起来，路再难也要坚持走下去的勇气和力量。。。事情变这么糟，我承认是我的错。。这世界上我最不想伤害的是爸妈和弟弟。。。我祈求你让我能将错一一的纠正，让我有力量努力去创造出能让爸妈幸福的未来。。这就是我prayer,Amen.

Fuck U Emo PPL

EVERYONE hates emo and pahtetic people

even I hate emo and pathetic people

but unfortunatly

I AM AN EMO AND PATHETIC PERSON

so

CONCLUSION,
I HATE MYSELF


I'd tried hard
but not hard enough

I'd done all I could
but I didn't

living a pathetic life
feeling pathetic for myself

I DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF
I'm not that kind of pathetic person
I DO NOT PITY MYSELF
for the shit i'm going thru

I BLAME MYSELF
for all the shit that i put myself into

YES IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!!
taking up the responsiblity for it
is hard
its too hard den imagine

LEARN TO GROW UP GIRL
you need to learn to grow up
I AM TRYING TO LEARN TO GROW UP
I am....


and...


I'm struggling
struggling so hard


and YES
I WISH TO TAKE THE PLAN
AND FLY HOME STRAIGHT AWAY
THROWING EVERYTHING AWAY

this need courage

PLEASE GIMME COURAGE LORD

I know this would be the 'wrong' thing to do
but WHAT IS WRONG when i DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT?




I DUN NEED LOVE
I DUN NEED MAN
I DUN NEED ANYTHING
BUT
I NEED TO BE SUCCESSFUL
I NEED MY PARENTS TO FEEL PROUD OF ME



I NEED, I WAN, I WILL.... is all the words I use
but...

AM I DOING IT?
AM I ACHIVING IT?

no


this is the MOST PATHETIC
ALL WORDS NO ACTION situation
and I HATE IT


I HATE BEING PATHETIC



AND YES


YOU GUYS WILL HATE ME



DO NOT PITY ME
CUZ I'M NOT WORTH FOR PITY




I AM NOT

To：爸妈

我又想死了
总感觉死
爸妈就不会有烦恼，不会有失望

真的真的好害怕让他们失望
但我明白我已经彻彻底底的
让他们失望了
但真的好害怕
这恐惧比死还要恐怖

说我懦弱吧
我承认我真的很懦弱

说我没用吧
我承认我真的很没用

感觉我继续留在这里留在这世界上
除了给爸妈烦恼
还是只会给他们烦恼

我缺乏勇气
去继续努力争取
我缺乏努力
去继续坚持了

我能活到这么失败
我承认一切都是我自己的过失
自己做错了就该自己承担

但我也发现了个事实
我活着这24年以来
除了爸妈
其实我什么也没有了
身上身边的一切一切
都是爸妈给的
若没爸妈
我什么也没有
身无分文
我什么也不是

爸妈
这一生中最爱的就是你们
即使遇难时
是有怪过你们说
为什么你们没那个能力
为什么我们就不是有钱人家
但长大了发现
你们给的
实在是太多
能给我的比起给你们自己的还要多
我不该让自己这么多的失败
不该让自己做出那么那么多让你们心痛让你们失望的事情
但我还是做了

哭也是于事无补
失眠也是于事无补
压力也是于事无补
自责也是于事无补


爸妈
我该怎样
我真的不知道我该怎样
因为我应该走的路
我走不下去了
是我亲手将它给折断了

这次的跌倒
是我自己活该

我是一个活生生的垃圾
对吧？

24年了
别人都有能力自己养活自己
我呢？

爸妈我该怎样？
我是不是该消失？
从此消失在这个世界上
你们就不会面对一次次的失望和心痛
让你们心痛
我自己心更痛

我真的很难受
我真的不知道我能怎样了

爸妈
如果24年前我没到这个世界上来
如果24年前来到这个世界上来的是另一位成功的女儿
你们现在回快乐很多很多吧？

爸妈
女儿不孝
女儿没用
女儿失败
女儿不好

女儿连这么一点的勇气都没有
女儿该怎么办？


我
张依慧
只会逃避
不会面对
即使想每对
也没有那个勇气和能力

我张依慧
就是一个活生生的
垃圾
一个没资格当你们的女儿的
垃圾




可能我死了
你们将不会面对
我这么大的一个失望の泉吧
你们应该会活得更快乐吧
你们应该会幸福吧